“I’ll never get over the pain of seeing my boyfriend murdered”

The girlfriend of a young man killed on a night out has revealed she wakes every day to be hit by the tragedy afresh.

Devastated Nicole McKay, 22, witnessed murderous Jack Mallon plunge a knife into boyfriend Jordan MacKay’s neck.

Immediately after the horror blow was struck, she gave her childhood sweetheart mouth-to-mouth in a desperate bid to keep him alive. However he had suffered a grim four-inch wound to the neck and died later in hospital.

In an exclusive interview with The Sunday Post Nicole revealed she’s hit all over again by his devastating loss every morning, leaving her in abject despair.

“Every morning I wake up and the awful truth hits me again that Jordan has gone,” she said. “It is the first thing I think of and I’m heartbroken that nothing can bring him back. Nothing can turn back the clock.

“He was murdered in a cold, senseless killing and we have been robbed of years of happiness. I don’t know how I will survive this.”

Thug Mallon, 47, faces a life sentence after he was found guilty of murdering the 20-year-old.

Mallon’s-ex girlfriend Charlene Wilson, 37, was also convicted on a reduced charge of culpable homicide following a trial at the High Court in Edinburgh.

Jordan, a joiner from Kirkliston, near Edinburgh, and Nicole had been enjoying a night out at the Staghead pub, South Queensferry, when he was attacked in the early hours of July 13 last year.

Wilson, also from Kirkliston, who had been drinking heavily, shouted at Nicole and tried to hit Jordan as they left the pub.

Witnesses told the trial Wilson caused a scene outside and threatened to call Mallon to “get them all done in”.

In crucial evidence, eyewitness Nicole told the jury how Mallon arrived and got out of car before wielding a knife in the air leaving Jordan “holding his neck”.

Last night Nicole added: “We got justice for Jordan but the pain goes on and on. Jordan and I were meant to spend the rest of our lives together and it is a huge struggle to accept we have been robbed of this.

“It is so hard to accept. So hard to take in. Nothing can bring Jordan back.”

Nicole hopes Mallon and Wilson serve life for cutting Jordan’s life so cruelly short.

“The right sentence has to be served,” she said. “Life should mean life. We only want justice.”

The jury delivered its guilty verdict the day before Nicole’s 22nd birthday.

A bouquet of flowers sits in the corner of the family living room but there is only sadness in Nicole’s eyes, that and the cold understanding this is the first birthday without Jordan.

“I can’t tell you how I got through the past eight months since,” she said, numb with grief. It’s all been a terrible blur for the pretty shop worker.

The most painful time since his death involved giving evidence at the trial.

“I dreaded having to speak and re-live what happened that evening…but I was driven by the promise to get a conviction. Justice had to be done for Jordan. That was all that mattered.

“It was painful but worth it because we got the right verdict. That was so important.”

The ordeal of the trial has forced her to take sick leave from job at a fashion chain.

“I can’t face work just now,” she added. “But I will go back soon.”

Her dad, Dave, 58, has revealed his wife had a chilling premonition the night Jordan was knifed.

“We were in bed when we heard the ambulance scream down a nearby road and my wife said, ‘That’s them something’s happened’,” he revealed.

“The police arrived at the door with Nicole and we were stunned. Horrified. We went to see Jordan in hospital where doctors and nurses were fighting to save him. He had lost so much blood. They were pouring it into him through transfusions and he held on for hours.

“But he died later on Sunday evening and we were devastated, not only for Jordan and his family, but our Nicole. He was the nicest big lad you were ever likely to meet.

“How do you console a daughter when she has been so cruelly heartbroken? You just want to take the pain for her.”

Dave, who said the couple were planning a life together, after being a couple since they were teenagers, added: “You would do anything to make it not have happened, but ugly brutal people came into our lives and destroyed our and Jordan’s family.

“When your children hurt the pain is indescribable.

“But we have a strong family and will give Nicole all the love and care she needs.”

The couple met when they were pupils at Queensferry High School.

They became inseparable and continued their close relationship after they left.

“We were young with everything to live for. We had our whole lives in front of us,” Nicole added

Nicole is close to Jordan’s parents, Elizabeth and William. Both families were looking forward to a future full of love and happiness for the young pair. But that loving bond has been violently torn apart by a cruel murderers’ anger, says distraught Dave.

“I miss Jordan so much,” distraught Nicole adds. “I would do anything to put the clock back.”

The judge, Johanna Johnston QC, told Mallon there was only one sentence that could be imposed in his case for murder life.

Wilson could also face a life sentence for culpable homicide.

The judge deferred sentence on the pair, who were remanded in custody, until next month.

Detective Inspector Raymond Brown said after the verdict: “This was a senseless attack on a young man who had everything to live for, and serves as a warning of the dangers of alcohol-fuelled violence and knife crime.

“I hope Jordan’s family can find some comfort in the guilty verdict.”